alone, or not

you knew it, you knew that im afraid being alone, and you did it. and the message made me felt extremely heartache. im so disappoint and heart broken, although i know its not all you fault. its my fault too, i shouldn't bring you along, or i shouldn't go? this is about my job, my income, my interest. im still young, i have capacity and capital thats why i want to do it now. i am so sorry, i dont mean to make you angry and worried. i love you alot, i willing to change if you want me to.